Yesterday I turned 54. The day itself was uneventful. I had the day off work, got my hair cut and highlighted, ate a berry burst chicken salad at Wendy’s (it wasn’t bad!), bought some sandals at DSW ($5.00 off coupon for my birthday), bought some supplies to do painted rocks at Michaels, and had dinner out at a local Italian spot where we could sit outside (salmon and greens with a delicious olive oil dressing).
On the day previous I had spent a lot of time thinking about my life until now. Doesn’t everyone do this from time to time? I feel as though I’ve accomplished nothing and I feel as though I’m just basically stagnant right now. I have a lot of ideas regarding things I’d like to do but the details of how to get stuff done remain sketchy. I feel as though I’m not contributing anything to the world, or to my country, city, neighborhood or even my home. Then my thoughts drift to the “what if’s” as they always do. What if I hadn’t gone into nursing school? What if I hadn’t married my first husband? What if I hadn’t married my second and current husband? What if I had been more assertive in my younger years? What if I had stuck with Weight Watchers longer the 3rd time I went? What if I hadn’t trained for that 10K 10 years ago (then I wouldn’t have injured my hip and knee and maybe would still be running today…) Thoughts like these never lead to anything positive so I decided to re-frame the question. What can I do today? What can I do this month? What can I do this year? What can I do for the rest of my 50th decade?
So now you’re wondering what I came up with, right? Ha. Nothing. I did download a bucket list app to my phone and I plan to categorize and list the things I would like to do. I’ve hesitated to start the list though, for some reason. I guess putting it on an actual list (rather than remaining in my head) makes it more official or something.
I also researched (ok googled…I wanted it to seem more sophisticated) people who’ve done great things at age 54. I wanted inspiration and evidence that it’s not too late for me to do something awesome.
I learned about Annie Jump Cannon. She categorized stars at age 54! Her photo is above. Here is a blurb from wikipedia:
Annie Jump Cannon (/ˈkænən/; December 11, 1863 – April 13, 1941) was an American astronomer whose cataloging work was instrumental in the development of contemporary stellar classification. With Edward C. Pickering, she is credited with the creation of the Harvard Classification Scheme, which was the first serious attempt to organize and classify stars based on their temperatures and spectral types. She was nearly deaf throughout her career. She was a suffragist and a member of the National Women’s Party.
I like everything about her. She was smart, educated, a suffragist, and a member of the National Women’s Party.
I had better get started….